Well Hello There

My has it been a  long time?! Yes it has. Well where to start.

I did my first 40 days and lost 50lbs. I feel so much better as a person and physically. Then it was time to go on the three week break with adding more calories. I didn't want to do this stage in the first place, I just wanted to keep going with my 500 calories a day until I left for Australia. Now I wish I had gone with my gut and stuck on that plan. During those three weeks I didn't gain anything but I didn't lose anything either, which jerks my chain. Granted I didn't eat the foods off the list, but was pretty darned close. I didn't gorge on food, I was still very aware of what was going into my mouth. With knowing what was going into my mouth, I slow started to add dairy, then found out NO dairy EVER again for Jessica.

I am about day 10 on the regular drops and back to the 500 calories a day. I did good the first week, dropped 10lbs. But then being a woman factored in and getting a flu bug that was going around work kicked my butt.

The flu was a stomach thing. So the whole two days I had ginger ale, crackers and PHO. Plus some ice cream. I was hungry any any rich solid food would make my stomach hurt all over again. It sucked, but as soon as it was over I went back to eating right. Then aunt flow came.

So aunt flo in town has kicked my butt this go around and I don't know why. When I first started the 40 days and aunt flow was visiting, I didn't want to pig out like normal. But this time she is making me want to EAT! I have been watching it though, short of. Don't judge me! I have been picking at things, not having the full serving though. It's just been all bad.

All the mean while, I have still been taking the drops, so I haven't felt hungry but I pick at things I shouldn't eat. Plus starting work at the waterfront again, isn't fun at all while on this diet.

It's time for a heart to heart with myself!!